that’s exactly why it won’t realistically happen. most people are inundated with capitalist propaganda, and those who aren’t either don’t care enough or have zero real world connections or support from people who do care (like me). very few people have actually done anything…

i didn’t wanna comment the Buddhism stuff myself, but yeah, it’s really helped me. especially the idea of anatta. it’s comforting for some reason

I’ve been clinging to the pipe dream that somebody will fix this shit, either through revolution or otherwise. doubtful it will ever really happen, but…

there’s really nothing anyone can say here that would help! most of it is just coping with an the dissatisfaction of life.

but, you’re in this situation against your will, and held there by a class system designed to keep you down. so much of your problems you describe here are because of money, because of insurance, doctors, government assitance just sucking. it’s not a coincidence.

what i mean is, this isn’t an internal problem. it’s not because of who you are in particular – the world, society, and capitalism has failed you. which, helps you on no way to point out

zaoshang hao zhongguo, xianzai, wo you bingqilin. wo hen xihuan bingqilin