My week just started cause I work Mon-Fri and I’m super nervous for tomorrow cause I have a project I have to do with someone I am not use to working with.

I’m gonna go get an edible after work though and hopefully I run into my crush.

I’ve been using Lemmy.today and have yet to experience a downtime issue.

looks great!

I just grew as a person I guess. I’m not the same person I was 10 years ago and I’m sure I’ll be different in the next 10 years if I’m still around.

I also cut a lot of people out of my life and cut a lot of certain interactions out of my life. Like for example, I got of 4chan in 2020. I use to be a troll - the kind of person OPs post is complaining about - and now I’m very against it. I always prefer to be honest online instead of just saying whatever to get a response.

I try to have more good faith discussions now instead of antagonizing people.

But I said I sounded like you 10 years ago cause I remember hanging out with people in person, at their houses and at parties and on the streets… I felt like an observer. It felt like I knew a lot about other people cause I was always listening in.

What changed is that I stopped listening in on those people. Went out of my way to go meet other people instead. Now I’m not seeing those patterns I use to see among the previous groups I hung out in.

I have some faith in humanity but only because I sit around theorizing how to make things better. It’s just a theory though. So I know its possible but to make it happen, would take the kind of work and time I don’t have and I have no reach.

Right? Every now and then I find someone who remembers but most people don’t remember the forums. I was super active on the forums there back in the day.

Why are we so shitty to each other indeed.

For whatever reason, people like to be better than others. It’s something I’ve never understood and I always try my best to be humble because of it and don’t really get off on being competitive like a lot of people do.

You sound like me 10 years ago.

damn do you remember Albino Black Sheep?

Those forums are how I eventually ended up on 4chan back in the day.

It’s already quite easy to forget we are interacting with other humans when we are behind screens and keyboards

I honestly hate that people do this. Maybe its because I work online in customer service and I chat with people online so I always know that I’m talking to a real person - but even before I worked online, I always assumed I was talking to a real person on the other end.

It’s wild to me that people become so incredibly inconsiderate that they don’t even think they’re talking to a human and instead interpret it as “oh I’m just arguing an idea” yeah, you’re arguing an idea with a HUMAN.

Sometimes I catch people doing that because they’ll respond to me like I’m someone else and I have to be like, hey no, I’m not that person, I’m my own person and you are in fact talking to me now. A person who will react to things being said. Cause you know, human.

I started using 4chan around 2007/2008. It was always like that. It was the place to be if you were a toxic edgelord - a space to openly be a nazi and racist and homophobic.

I remember threads on /b/ back then too where people were looking for a new Hitler.

And they always had that shitty mentality. Be as contrarian as you can and as long as you can antagonize people into reacting, then you got one over on someone.

I haven’t been on there since 2020 but I watched it get worse and worse over the years as it spread into the mainstream with things like Gamergate and the fappening. I even tried to tell people but they would just laugh it off cause “4chan”

I miss having access to Taobao.

Ibiza

ohh yes! They got the kinda nightclubs you usually only see in movies.

I’d join.

god I was hoping it was like tourists show up and just get laid by natives but instead it’s just weird cuckolding.

Nope, I was just in a very bad environment and very immature. I enjoyed being a stupid edgelord cause it gains you reactions.

It’s like kids who enjoy getting negative attention. Like the saying, all press is good press. I just wanted any kind of attention and didn’t care how I got it.

Thank god I’m over that lol

damn, I guess I’ll just go block them all. How irritating lol

Yeah, I use to be one of those people and am not anymore. It was a very miserable existence.

I’m not even joined to all the news, memes, and politics communities but they show up in my feed anyway? How do I get rid of them?

I have to filter to subscribed to not see them but even then sometimes they are there. Maybe its just the instance that I’m in?

At least with irl communities, there is a pressure not to insult each other to one another’s faces.

Ugh, not where I live, but yeah.

they could just move along.

And that’s how you know those people are purposely being malicious. They want to ruin it for others because they think its funny to ruin things for other people and there’s no real consequences for their behavior.