I’m so depressed. I’m so sick of being disabled and useless and unable to work or make any money when everything costs money just to exist even without any quality of life. Everything is getting more expensive. Rent has gone up, the insurance they now require is more costly, the bank fucked up the auto payment so we had to pay late fees, the electricity bill is ridiculous (we’re not the only one in these apartments whose electricity bill is suddenly ridiculous) and we’re already late paying it and only have a few days left before we get shut off and violate our lease, local utility help can’t help us because they either don’t have any funds or we already used them in the past year, and I have NO idea how we’re gonna come up with the rest of the 300 something fucking dollars as mom and I are both disabled and her son is a mooching piece of shit who doesn’t contribute a lick despite not being disabled whatsoever. But he’s mommy’s little baby boy, so he gets to do what he wants. God I’m so sick of this. I feel like I need a rich fairy god mother to wave a magic wand and solve all my problems. I’m in so much pain I haven’t slept for two days. I’m sick of this.

I know other people have it a lot worse than me, though… I shouldn’t be bitching, but I’m a weak and whiny little idiot of a useless weenie. Bleh. Why do I have to exist when I’ve never wanted to my whole life? It’s not fair.