Can’t catch a break

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Cake day: October 12th, 2023

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  • Without: almost always when lounging around. With few exceptions, always when sleeping. Occasionally when I am going to the store and do not give any fucks.

    With: if I am having a particularly bad upper back pain day. All formal and business events.

    Now, if you asked me when my boobs were smaller, or before I found properly fitting bras, I’m sure my answers would be different. A garment that actually holds them up is a game changer. I have legitimately had headaches melt away with a brand new, well-fitting bra.



  • I’ve had that problem in the past. I was giving away my daughter’s clothes that were too small, and with offense in her voice, I was told “other families should be able to use this.”

    …yes, I originally got this from a trashbag, but I thought they were decent. I even discarded the stuff my daughter finally wore out and freshly washed everything I brought in! I guess my standards were yet too low, despite being one of the “poors” myself at the time.

    I’m also on team “very cheap second hand” couch. Prices on brand new are just too damn high.


  • So many straight men complain if women take a long time to get ready, but will also complain about the looks of women without an involved beauty routine.

    Or they think that a “natural” beauty routine is what no effort looks like when it’s not even close.

    It’s easier to just do what you want and consider these men not worth your time, but it does get annoying some days. Especially when other women buy into it and also give you shit for being “gross.”




  • Are you doing a pencil, gel, or liquid? All of them have their own challenges. Some pencils are better than others, but I also haven’t used a pencil in a long time. Ones where I had to press down harder and were dry were trash to me.

    I like liquid with a brush, but I had to stop because my oily lids would just… Melt it off. I could get some crisp lines with them, though.

    For gel, I would use an angle brush. I would start from the center of the eye outwards, then go from the outside to the middle to even it out if that makes sense. After I did that, which I always find to be the least forgiving part, I would do the rest of the eye.

    No matter what type I am applying, I would have a mirror near my face, my elbow on the table, and the brush or pencil in my hand. This way, I only have to control my hand with my wrist. I don’t have to think about my shoulder.

    Make sure you have some good, gentle makeup remover. Practice a LOT. I also just had to wear it for a bit just so I get used to my face looking different.

    I found that using a lighter hand on the lower part of the eye, if I put any, gives me a look I prefer over lining the whole eye uniformly.










  • Not belonging. Never knowing if who I am will stop me from getting the help I need.

    When I left my ex, I needed state enforcement to stop him from hurting me again. Years later, I began dating a woman. It was terrifying to know that if someone doesn’t like it, they can give him access to me or my daughter again. Has he gotten bored with us? No, unfortunately. Constant vigilance. No mistakes.

    I work in a male dominated field. Which is hard enough as a woman. But I managed to keep being promoted. I was able to provide for my family. Until they found out I was gay. Then my reviews were lukewarm, I got shut out of important meetings, and there was no more opportunity for growth.

    I lie on my paperwork for doctors now. I’ve had one gyno go from friendly to cold with me after asking about my partner. (I find it’s best to always say you’re single anyway, that way they don’t seek permission from anyone you might be involved with.) I thought it was relevant because it was care for my genitals. But I can’t trust it. I’m already ignored enough at the doctor. I don’t need to give them even more reasons.

    It shouldn’t be like this. I shouldn’t have to hide things about myself just to live.